I have a terrible track record when it comes to plants—especially house plants.
I don’t know if it is where I put them (probably not), the hot environment I live in (eh), how I water them (maybe), or if it’s just me (definitely), but I just kill them left and right. Even the “low maintenance”, “hearty”, “unkillable” plants. Once I get my hands on them, they die. It might not be immediate, but it also isn’t a long, drawn out process. I will consistently have a strong first week—or longer—in which I have time to get cocky and brag about my incredible plant child and how I am keeping it alive with my bare hands (and water), and then everything goes downhill very fast.
Eventually I’m knee deep in Google articles all telling me the yellowing of my leaves is caused by something different, and then I start putting my plant in different corners of the room, watering it more, watering it less, whispering sweet nothings to it, apologizing to it, giving up on it, finding a second wind and dedicating my entire life to it, deciding I need to approach it from different angles, occasionally lifting it up so the pot it’s in can “stretch its legs”, panicking as all the leaves start to wither, smothering it with even more water, sunlight and attention until ultimately, it meets the fate of all of its brothers and sisters that came before.
So, to remember and honor those that have been murdered by me fallen, I decided to give them a voice. To allow them to express themselves and their woes about having me as a plant mom. I am also hoping this might impress my current houseplant (who I’ve named Esther) and encourage her to stay alive.
Please, E, I’m trying my best.
.
I am new, alive
Ready to grow, blossom, bloom
Wow, you killed me quick
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I need more sunlight
My leaves, my soil, they are parched
Scorched, drowned, I am dead
.
Your words, they are kind
Your efforts, they are noble
But you suck at this
.
Some have thumbs dipped green
Some have hands purposed for soil
You have neither, dear
.
I have slipped your mind
Unwatered for days and days
I die, you TikTok
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Water, a life force
Water, a true source of hope
Waterboarded: me
.
Maybe leave me be
Give me time and space to grow
Helicopter mom
.
Fate has many paths
With you, it seems mine is set
Do plants go to heaven?
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Leaves, water, pots, dirt
Sunlight, temperature, food
What? I am a plant.
Kimberlee K. 
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